Lately I had quite some excuses and justifications for not vlogging more regularly. My writings are consistently and it would be cool if my vlogging is in the same line with my blogging. This song of “50 ways to leave your lover” popped up into my mind. Some days I do have have 50 ways or excuses, but tonight I’ll keep it to my top 10 of most frequently used excuses or justifications.
To check the title of the song I came across the lyrics and it showed me even more what a bullshit I had been producing.
|The problem is all inside your head
She said to me
The answer is easy if you
Take it logically
I’d like to help you in your struggle
To be free
There must be fifty ways
To leave your lover
You just slip out the back, Jack
Make a new plan, Stan
You don’t need to be coy, Roy
Just get yourself free
Hop on the bus, Gus
You don’t need to discuss much
Just drop off the key, Lee
And get yourself free
|The problem is all inside my mind
I said to myself
the answer is easy if I
take common sense
with the equality equation I end my struggle
to set myself free
there may not be 50 ways
to leave my vlogging
Just slip out of the back door, for more
Make a new excuse, juice
You don’t need to fear, dear
Just set yourself free
Hop through your mind, kind
You don’t need to think much
Just drop of free will, Syl
And set yourself free
1. I’ve got nothing of importance to share on camera with the rest of the world.
Bullshit, sharing myself and sharing my process is always of importance for myself and others. Within the vlogging I can practise the living words and see where I have points to work on.
2. My English isn’t sufficient enough to express myself in a way that I can reach out and make a difference.
Bullshit, till so far nobody asked for subtitling, so what has changed? My opinion within my mind towards vlogging has changed. Opinions and non consistant thoughts are not real so this one can be disregarded. Everybody can make a difference when common sense, self-honesty and acting in the best interest of all is applied. There is no need to make “making a difference” into fine art, there is no room for specialness within ones and equality.
3. My computer and tools are old and not efficient enough to make video’s in a modern up to date way.
Bullshit, even with old materials I can get the message across. It’s the message that counts and not the fancy outside.
4. I know what to talk about when I’m not able to record.
Bullshit, I can take notes and tape it later. There is no need for emotions and feelings of being in the mood and being energetic charged to record a video. I proofed that already many times to myself so why do I not learn from my experiences? Simply because I search for a reason to not vlog.
5. Within my mind the spoken words were more effective.
Bullshit, I know that I’m the king within my own mind and that I always will disappoint myself within reality when I compare those two with each other.
6. There is always someone around which enables me to record a video.
Bullshit, there are always occasions enough to record while nobody is in the room. It’s more the shame of not wanting to record with others in my presence. I feel judged when they see me possibly stumble. These thoughts and fears are not the reality and just another excuse to not record when someone else is in the room. It’s not the judging of others it’s me judging myself and fearing myself within vlogging and what may come up.
7. I want validation through vlogging and at the same time I don’t want validation on myself.
Bullshit, trying to get self validation through others or through the things I do is simply not facing myself. This not facing myself reflects in the fact that I’m at the same time don’t want any validation/judging. It’s because I see it as judging that it turns into negative and something ugly. So no need for that, it’s all in the mind and therefore not real. I vlog for myself to get insides within myself and that’s the main reason for doing so, helping each other by sharing our individual processes is also an important reason to not overlook.
8. I know about what and how to vlog, I simply can not push myself to do it regularly.
Bullshit, I can push myself to anything as long as I’m self-honest with myself. Excuses are dishonest and not facing myself.
9. When the consistency is out of my vlogging I build up a new resistance for it.
Bullshit, if I really belief this opinion of mine I rather would not let it come to this point where the consistency goes out of my vlogging. I simply do not belief this and see it as another excuse to not face myself and to put things on camera.
10. When I focus myself on other Desteni related things I can be effective too, for the best interest of all.
Bullshit, I can always do more or other Desteni related stuff, but it cannot take away the point of vlogging. I need to simply face it and push myself through it. So I made a short vlog today to have a start.